Well, as most of you noticed, it's been a very long time since I've been here. And, to be brutally honest, I don't regret it one bit. I needed the time away, and I don't seriously plan to return for any long or consistent duration. I've enjoyed getting away and sort of starting with a clean slate, getting into more productive (for my creativity, anyway) hobbies, and the likes. And, really, the entire reason I ever slacked coming here in the first place was to avoid drama and unnecessary stress that was associated with the past and this account.

Best idea I ever had was to stop logging in. I even have another account (no, I don't mean that ancient, abandoned, vicious-mistress one), but I haven't been on it in nearly as long, either. That part would be because of computer issues. Slow internet and deviantART just don't mix any longer. I'm shocked it loaded well enough to 'come back' and make this entry, truly. But it did, and so I'm here. You can thank cleaning out my bookmarks for that one.

As far as how I'm doing is concerned: I'm doing fine. I still have migraines, sometimes from stress but increasingly from lighting conditions. I have a new computer as of... August, I think. It's an HP and it's amazing. Vista also isn't anywhere near as horrible as I'd expected it would be. I actually rather adore it and didn't like having to use XP when using my old computer after I got this one. Hmm, let's see... what else?

Well, I'm still single and I love it. Freedom is so underrated. It makes me feel like an idiot for some of the things I did for love (which, at the time, I truly believed to be love). Please, don't pity me, though. I deserve to feel like an idiot for that. It's a part of my past for which I hold much shame and resentment. But I'm not like that anymore.

I'm still admin over at the RPG site called LSD. I'm still juggling way too many characters and making more. I'm also in a Cowboy Bebop RPG now. Nothing spectacular character-wise, but it's fun and that counts for something. I have Moonlight and Cowboy Bebop on DVD now, and am looking into Trigun, Hellsing, Gundam Wing, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Big-O, Gungrave, House, Doctor Who, Torchwood, and X-Files as 'sometime in the near-ish future' purchases DVD-wise. A Blu-Ray player would be on that list if I actually gave a damn about that kind of thing (I don't own any Blu-Rays and the series I want aren't available in the medium, mostly). If I do get one, it'll be one that can connect to my computer since it has an HD monitor (seventeen inches, at that!) as opposed to my normal television.

As happens every other year or so, I've fallen pretty deep back into the Cowboy Bebop fandom. But eh, it's an epic series so that's to be expected - especially since I finally have the DVD set. Oddly enough, though, whereas I used to be a very Faye person, I've become a lot more of a Spike person. Apathetic mixed with a short temper and a knack for running from the past... yet always coming back to a piece or two of said past over time. Then again, Spike doesn't have breasts.

... I hope.

Eh, that's really all for now. Don't know when I'll log in again, because I'm through with the spending every day on this account mess. That ended over a year ago. Don't take it personally, but yeah: that's just the way it goes. And no, I'm not giving out the name of that other account I mentioned. But it's juts as well, as I don't plan to be on it much, either. I haven't written or drawn anything that would be fit for dA, anyhow (most of my writing goes into extensive character bios and RPG posts in forums - and I haven't drawn in ages).

So, that's the way the cookie crumbles. Keep your fangs sharp, or some other lame reference like that. And until next time: adieu.

By the way, the journal title is a line from the song "Give it Up" by 8mm, which I was listening to when I began writing this.